I have written my feeling down in the past and it has helped. I think what I will do today is write down how I am actually feeling for when he does come home tonight to shower . And tell him he may not want to talk or hear what I have to say so he can read it or destroy it. I do let my thoughts get out of control i know I really broke his heart . But he broke my heart too ! Months ago I got a phone call from someone telling me that all the rumours that were going around were true. I tried to talk to him about it and he wouldn’t talk to me about it so I packed up everything that was and moved it into the shed I changed the 🔐 and even locked him out of the house. This broke his heart , but he doesn’t understand that he broke my heart to by having an emotional affair .
He keeps holding my actions against me and not thinking about what he has done .